“enough to fill up heaven, overflow and fill hell..”

Sometimes, it’s the little stuff that hits you right in the chest.

It’s probably just inevitable, what with the exams looming round the corner, all the stress that entails and everything.. But yeah, I’m missing my sister so bad right now.

In the old times, she would make sure that she’s there for me during my exams. I’m the kind who panics way more than I should whenever exam season is in town, so I guess she just didn’t want me to die of anxiety. What she couldn’t help with academically, she made up for it in the mental fort. All the little things that just made sure I’m okay, from staying up all night to keep me company while studying to just being there for me to moan and groan to after flunking an exam. She would be there at all times, being the big sister that she’s always been.

So yeah, I know she’s still watching over me somewhere up there but to be honest, it just kinda sucks now being out here on my own doing my exams without her around for the first time.

“I hear you still talk to me
As if you’re sitting in that dusty chair
Makes the hours easier to bear
I know despite the years alone
I’ll always listen to you sing your sweet song
And if it’s all the same to you

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven, overflow, and fill hell”

“ke Jakarta, aku kan kembali!”

It’s been a rough week. No kidding.

And it just so happened that I managed to start this week by getting my plane tickets for the term break. Look, I know Jakarta is only like 7 steps and a skip from here but when you need to be back home, you need to get back home.

Let’s just hope nothing majorly bad happens in the meantime, and soon enough I’ll be back snuggling in my den. ‘Til then, happy thoughts, Wi. Nothing but happy thoughts!


p.s: and how adorable is this version of Koes Plus’ Kembali Ke Jakarta by Reza Saleh?