“I’ve seen in your eyes, I’ve read it in books”

Just somehow, I keep finding the sister’s books pop up in the randomest corners of our house. Weird, since we have boxed all her stuff nice and neat, yet I keep stumbling over these books from time to time.

Today, which marked exactly 6th year since I last saw her, I found this Stephen Hawking book after a sudden urge to scour through an untouched drawer full of forgotten stuff.

If anything, I think this occurrence is what lead me to my reading habit as it is now. Those who know me some 10 years ago must have known that I didn’t even enjoy reading, to the point of finding it annoying (Well, in my poor defense, school is to blame for that stance!). And what’s more, is that I used to complain that the sister’s books kept taking up all the space in our bedroom.

So what changed? Well, the fact that I kept finding books after books that belonged to her after she’s gone did. And also the fact that the last birthday gift she had given me was also a book. It just feels like this is the least I could do to make it up to her. A silent apology, if you can call it that.

Yet another one of random gifts I’ve gotten from her, even after she’s gone. I guess you still know me best, Sis. Thanks for this one 🙂

“To the night and the stars; to be here, and now, and who we are..”

I still find it hard to believe that 2014 is ending in a matter of hours.

At the risk of sounding like the age-old cliche, it really did seem like time just went speeding by during the hours, the weeks, the months. All sorts of things just came charging at me in full flurry of a breakneck speed, and suddenly boom, hey the year is over. That’s it, thank you very much, bye bye. What gives, Universe?

I have never been the type who does a year-end review of any sort, but really. 2014 just takes the cake right now and deserves all the special nods it can get. So yeah, here’s to you, 2014.

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“people should smile more”


This super awesome sheet of mega bubble wrap which came with the package I received this evening served as a little reminder:

Have you been enjoying the little things in life?

In this day and age where everything seems to be a drag and life seems to get tougher by the second, people crack so easily under the slightest pressure.

Thanks to this wrapper, I’m once again reminded that life can still be fun, after all 🙂

So, what made you smile today?

“..and say goodbye to yesterday.”



And just like that, it’s all over.

I’m still trying to register in my mind that I’ve actually finished yet another year of school. Heck, I still can’t believe I actually  managed to do some more studying. Who knew that this pea-brain could actually muster the strength to quit working and life in general to dive back into law textbooks and student life? Me, the one who originally had sworn herself off of studying back in 2009. I guess we all get that change of heart every once in a while, eh?

So I finally went and did pretty much everything one could ever think of in one short year. Moving out of my hometown to live on my own, studying in a completely different environment, a shocking change of lifestyle (I’m proud to say it is for a better one, though!), to all the random #YOLO shenanigans my old self wouldn’t have done 3 years ago. And look at me, I survived.

It’s been.. remarkable.  The friends I’ve made, the perils I’ve gone through, the challenges I had to face, the drama I had to overcome, the tiny steps that lead me to who I am now. And of course, the happy memories that came with the whole package. Nobody can ever take that away from me. As tough as it may have been, I wouldn’t have chosen to live my life this past year in any other way.

As the great wise Dan Wilson (of Semisonic of course, cos my music taste is forever stuck in the “some years ago” phase) said, every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end. And looking at how it is now, it’s time for another new beginning. Pretty sure I’ve learned a few things from living and studying in Singapore now, hopefully they’ll carry me somewhere decent 🙂 And I quote Modest Mouse this time, “And we’ll all float on, alright”. Amen to that.


Cheers to us all, NUS LLM class of 2014. It’s been mad awesome indeed. Time for the Indonesian hobbit to sign out now 🙂



“I like to see people reunited”

“maybe that’s a silly thing, but what can I say, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience;

the stories that the mouth can’t tell fast enough, the ears that aren’t big enough, the eyes that can’t take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together;

the end of missing someone.”

[Jonathan Safran Foer – Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close]

“I need to be in the town where they know what I’m like and don’t mind”

While life in Singapore is just so smooth with all the orderliness and spic-n-span public facilities, I just can’t wait to be home. To snuggle in my bed, in my attic. To wake up and have breakfast with the parents. To cuddle up to my cousins. To speak my own language freely. To no longer be away from my loved ones.

I know Jakarta is not the most beautiful place to be, but hey. I’m smiling ear to ear now, waiting for the boarding gate to open. Feels so good to say “hey, I’m coming home!” 🙂