It’s just exactly what The Big J needs, after all the heat and dust flying around. Perfect way to kick start the weekend.
But hey, here I am, 5.15 in the morning on a Saturday, just having received a reminder for my gym session at 7 am..
I guess it’s one of those Energizer-Bunny moments, whether I like it or not.
And so, for the first time in my working years, I found myself crying on the job. Which makes a poor excuse, but it’s the only explanation as to why I did not post yesterday.
Sucks, but I guess these things happen. I guess now I need to raise my failure threshold too, when it comes to these kind of things. Well, we really do learn some new things every day after all..
Challenges. They drive me nuts. Especially the ones that push me right waaaay outside of my comfort zone, to the point of it being a fight-or-flight situation. If it was still 2012, then surely it would have been a flight sitch for me, no questions asked. I was always the flight in a fight or flight.
Funny, how things have changed. Let’s see whether I’ve gone delusional or I’ve actually leveled up. Allez, Wina!
Have you ever missed something so bad you just end up doing whatever it is that may seem stupid or whatever, all for the sake of having whatever it is around?
I know I have. All because of the long period of no rain. From the simplest stuff as not knowing what to wear to suddenly losing the ability to sleep, all because of one thing: the need for the rain to cool off everyone.
Oh aye. I am definitely enjoying this very second right now, being able to be tucked in bed, drifting away to the pitterpatter sound of the rain outside.
Well, well. Here we are, November.
What was set out to be a NaNoWriMo mission has to already take a detour right on the very first day: there is no way in hell I can write a novel, especially in one month. I even run out of word too easily replying to my work e-mails.
But you know what?
I miss the thrill of blogging.
Just the feeling of being able to write down everything, letting go of whatever is in my mind. I know sometimes some habits just die down, but I don’t want this one to be it. Not blogging. In fact, I know this thing should now play a bigger part in my life, especially since now I don’t have anyone to share mundane and random stuff with at home.
So.. Yep. Let’s try blogging every day, all through the month.
Not a novel, but at least I can jot down some piece of my mind. Every single day. Let’s see if I will be able to make it through the month, especially now that I have my iPad, I can’t blame it on technicalities anymore. Heh.
“But what are you going to write about?”, you ask? Well.. I guess we’ll see about that, won’t we?
Been a while, and now that I’m actually posting again it’s this sombre. But hey, I need this for my therapy, so be it.
By now, I’ve learned full well that pressure is not something you avoid. In fact, I think I can honestly say I deal with it quite well, and I quite often find myself performing well under pressure.
One trouble of getting used to it though, is how do we know when we’ve had too much?
How do you know it’s not just you being a crybaby while the world is actually toughening you up?
How can you tell when something is actually preparing you for a next level instead of driving you insane?
Dealing with it, meanwhile, is a completely different universe altogether.
Do we fight? Do we take flight?
What do you do when all you want is just to let everything go but you have everyone around you saying “Don’t be crazy, you’re into something good, don’t let it get away”?
Just exactly how much do we have to put up with in pursuit of progress?